Love Kills

Love Kills

Armin stared at the ceiling of his new home as he laid in bed. Tears welled up in his eyes as he recalled his memories just like he did every night. He had been sent home because of an devastating accident that caused him to have broken his leg. The day they told him, he tried to convince them that he could still be useful. He tried to do everything physically possible to stay with Eren.

"Go Armin. You're in no shape to continue fighting titans."

"Eren, I don't have to titans! I c-can help with plans! Please, Corporal Smith, believe me!"

Armin clenched his fists and closed his eyes tightly, trying to block the thoughts out of his mind. He choked back a sob as he realized that he couldn't. If he didn't, he wouldn't be able to hear Eren's voice anymore.

"Armin, you don't have to stay anymore! Go!"

"... Eren, I can't leave. I can't be anywhere else if you-"

"I don't love you."

The blond's body shook with sobs as he remembered looking up at his ex-lover and hearing those words coming from his lips. He shook his head, trying to get him to reason with him. He couldn't lose him like this, no. If he did, he wouldn't be able to take it.

"Eren, what are you saying?"

"I don't love you, Armin. I never did!"

"Y-you lied?"

Armin's heart seemed to crack more as this memory continued. He grabbed at his shirt where his heart was painfully beating. Tears ran down his cheeks as he glared at wall, wishing he could go back and change it all.

"I did so there's no reason for you to stay."

That was what convinced Armin to leave. He was sent to the inner walls where he was treated for his injuries and was basically given a home where he lived alone, going through his painful memories. He would sit in front of the window and stare at the people that passed by, hoping he would see those olive green eyes that he missed so much.

But much to his despair, those eyes will never show up and he knows it but that will never stop him from searching the crowds.

Armin missed him desperately, wishing to have his strong arms wrap around his body, hoping to be lulled to sleep by his comforting voice, and just wanting to be next to Eren.

Armin closed his eyes, feeling emotionally and physically tired, and found himself sleeping and dreaming of Eren.

Even if the boy had broken his heart.

~They say that true love hurts, well, this almost kill me.
Young love murdered; that is what it must be.
I would give it all away to not be sleeping alone.~
The Harold Song by Kesha