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So Sick

I was tired of this. Crying in my room because _ had left me.  I miss her a lot. I don´t know what I even know what I did wrong. She just came home and when I tried to hug her, she pushed me away.

-FLASHBACK-

¨Ciao, _. ¨ I said as I walked up to her.  She didn´t look at me as she put her bag on the table. I hugged her but she pushed me away. I was shocked. ¨What´s wrong? ¨ I asked. She shook her head and ran to her room. I was confused. I walked to her room and knocked on the door. ¨_, bella, what´s wrong? ¨ I asked.

¨I need some time alone please. ¨ I heard her say. I sighed.

¨Va bene. ¨ I said and went downstairs. After an hour, I heard her come down. I looked up from the TV and saw her with suitcases. My eyes widen. ¨W-what are you doing? ¨ I asked. Her face was streaked with tears.

¨I´m leaving, Lovino. ¨ she said.

¨What? Why? ¨ I asked frantically.  She sighed.

¨I don´t think we have that spark anymore. I don´t feel like I did when I fell in love with you. ¨ she said. I got up.

¨B-but I still love you. ¨ I said. My eyes began to water. She shook her head.

¨I´m sorry, Lovino. I just don´t feel it. ¨ she said and grabbed her suitcases. She began to walk towards the door but I grabbed her arm.

¨ No! Please _, don´t leave me. Por favore! ¨ I begged. She dropped her suitcase and slapped me. I let go of her arm to touch my cheek. She looked at with her tear filled eyes.

¨I´m sorry. ¨ she said and left. I looked out and saw a car outside. I saw Antonio in the car. My anger flared up but it was put out when I remembered that she slapped me. It stung more than ever. She entered the car and they drove off, leaving me crying with the door wide open.

-END OF FLASHBACK-

Now all I do is sit my room crying and listening to love songs. Even though I´m tired of them. Each on reminds me of us. I want to change the answering machine because it say we can´t come to the phone but I can´t because then her beautiful voice would be lost to me forever since it now belongs to someone else. I can´t forget her. Her smile, the way her (e/c) eyes gleamed with excitement and happiness. She was the only one who could make me happy. I should have popped the question. I wish she was here. I´m so sick of this.